Not going out of my way for anyone anymore… Sick and tired of getting no gratitude or respect for anything I do. When someone goes out of there way to do something nice for you, you don’t destroy what they’ve done or disrespect it. You can suck a ball bag if you think I’m going out of my way and wasting MY time doing something nice for you again. Time is precious and I only give it away to people who deserve it. This is Yet another reason why I do not like people. Maybe I should start writing a list.
Watching Seven Psychopaths, love this film so much!
So my trip to town didn’t turn out so good today..
I found out that they had discontinued the camera I really wanted and everywhere has only just recently sold out of it. The only ones they had available were the display ones which I didn’t want to pay out for… Soo gutted!
I’ve been saving really hard the past few months and before moving to university I wanted to invest in a new laptop and a camera. So I’m now debating on whether to buy myself a laptop and a little compact camera for the time being until I have decided on and can afford a really decent camera like the one I originally liked..
Time to get dressed I think!
Day off today and I’m nipping into town to have a look at some new cameras! There’s one I have my beady eye on and hopefully I’ll be coming back with it today!
Then later on Hannibal is o TV and I get to drool over Mad’s…
Good day!
It is the worst thing when you suffer with depression and everyone keeps asking you if you’re ok or what’s wrong?
I just want to start by saying I find it extremely difficult to hide how I’m feeling when I’m going through ‘a dark patch’. It is almost impossible for me to hold a conversation with people as my mind is elsewhere, I struggle to engage in humor and I become forgetful and distant, (Never quite grounded) no matter how hard I try to be. It’s so obvious when this happens because it’s so unlike my usual bubbly happy self. Usually there is no reason what so ever for me feeling this way or the smallest, stupidest thing triggers me into a pit of depression because my mind looks at thing irrationally releasing a tun of ‘sad chemicals’ in my brain. When people ask me if I’m ok or what’s wrong I feel I can’t answer them properly. I know they’re just being kind but the last thing I want to do is tell everyone I work with I suffer with depression but on the other hand I can’t tell them what is wrong with me… because I just don’t know, other than the fact I suffer with mood swings.
Can’t decide whether to get a Samsung NX1000 or a Sony NEX 5r…. Arhhh decisions !!
Early morning, smoothie, Grimes, happy.
Agenda list for today:
- Finish work
- Make fruit smoothie when I get home
- Spring clean house
- Pack a few bits to take with me to house I’m taking care of
- Strip hair
- Shower
- Go to friends house and feed cats
- Movie
- Bed
I love seeing old couples together and still looking happy and in love, so sweet!
I love being able to take my computer to work with me!
House to myself today!!
Finally get a chance to sort a few bits out today and get on top of things as well as lazing about and enjoying my own company.
Love having the house to myself!
